This is a question that no-one else can answer for you. It’s so personal that you may go to great lengths to keep it hidden from the closest people around you, but you cannot keep it hidden from the One who searches the deepest and darkest areas of your heart.
So ask yourself, is your life just and fair or is it full of lies and deceit? Is it a success or a failure, stressful or stress-free? Are you saved or lost, judgemental or forgiving, loving or bitter? What about greedy or kind, selfish or charitable, proud or meek, at peace or in a battle, in bondage or porn-free and the list goes on …….
Here’s what James 4 14 says Whereas ye know not what shall be on the morrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapour, that appeareth for a little time, and then vanisheth away.